Monday, November 15, 2010
So I've made the move across the country - I actually made the move in June, but I wouldn't say that I've really settled in until now. I've got a job, I just moved into a new apartment in Portland, and I really feel like I'm beginning my life out here.
What's interesting is that now that I'm back on the west coast, closer to my family and old friends, I don't feel as though I'm actually any closer. I certainly see my old friends more, but I don't see my friends back in NY at all. And I have only seen my family a couple of times in the few months since I've been back, which really isn't all that much different from when I lived on the other coast.
The bottom line is that I don't know if I can see myself staying here forever. In fact, I don't know if I can see myself staying anywhere forever. I feel like while I was living in NY I constantly say that I couldn't settle because I knew that I wanted to move back to the west coast. But now that I'm back here, I feel like I keep saying the same thing. I guess I should give myself some time; Portland is a great city, I've only been living here two weeks, and I've literally only been back on the west coast for about five months. I guess I'll have to wait and see how I feel moving forward.